I choose a few months ago to deep dive into the experiment of Human Design. It is a tool to help you understand yourself more. To understand how you are influenced and conditioned. A manual on how to live a more peaceful life. Based on your birth date, place and time it gives you a blueprint of sorts of your personality and soul. I am a Mental Projector which makes me around 2% of the population. I am very open which means when I am around others their energy and emotions deeply effect me. I am also very good at channelling and connecting with others truth. It can be off-putting for some as they feel exposed in my presence. I love to learn and when I stumble across something new I go all in. I don’t know how to skim the surface, I want to know it all. Hence why I got my foundation reading after a couple of months of diving in.
In Human design there is 4 main types of people, Generators make up 70% of the population and they have a sacral motor which drives them with immense energy when they are in alignment. Within Generators there are also Manifesting Generators which means they have a manifesting ability once responding to something. There are Projectors which are around 20% of the population, projectors are here to guide energy, they are not the doers. Manifestors are next which make up around 10% of the population, they are here to initiate and bring new ideas to the world, they are also not the doers. Lastly the most rare type is the Reflector, which is 1% of the population. They are here to reflect back to the community around them, to be a mirror and amplify the energy of those around them.
As a mental projector I am focused currently on my Strategy and Authority. They say at the beginning of ones experiment this is the best way to focus on living your human design. You can get your free human design chart here. My strategy as a projector is to wait for the invitation. A sign that I am not on the right path is a feeling of bitterness. It goes against everything I have been conditioned to do my whole life. People tell you to go out and make things happen, initiate otherwise you wont find success. I am now being asked to focus on the things I love, read, make art, write, meditate, cook, socialise and trust the right invitations will come my way. While it is not completely passive it feels uncomfortable for me. I wrestle with the fact that I want to make things happen. The truth is we are all a passengers to our life. We need to surrender to the beautiful ebb and flow of the gift we have been given. We are not in control even though our minds would like to think we are.
My authority is one that really bothers me. I can accept the strategy to wait for invitations. My authority is something I am still coming to terms with. As a mental projector with a defined head and anja I have no internal decision making authority. For big choices in my life I have to sound board them with others. I have to speak out loud and discuss my options and then see how that feels in my body. I don’t need the advice of others, I just need to be able to tell them how I am feeling and my own pro’s and con’s. It is something I have always done. Talk a lot to others about my life and where it is heading. It is weird though knowing I shouldn’t solely rely on a gut feeling or my heart.
I have spent the last few months reading every night learning more and more about how it all works. I feel overwhelmed but I know that my mind is just searching for answers. I know my body already feels the alignment with my design. The thing that I love about it is that it has allowed me to laugh at my not-self. It has allowed me to realise my open mind has many thoughts that are not mine, many thoughts in the day that aren’t towards my highest good. Now I can sit back and laugh at my thoughts and know they are not me. I also know that as a projector I need to be recognised by others for my gifts. I light up when someone recognises me. I am grateful that I have entered in to many relationships where this has been the case. I am also less stressed about pleasing everyone. It is not my job to please and appease all the time. I am not here to contort to what everyone wants or expects me to be. Ahhhh what a relief.
Special mention to Erik Bergen who runs the facebook group ‘Erik’s Group of Wonderment’ that sparked my interest in diving deep in to Human Design.